Self-Mastery

Interesting how my life seems to be in a crazy tailspin and that is the very lesson that I needed to learn and understand from my studies. I really enjoyed learning. I enjoy the process of something being a huge struggle initially and then that moment of ‘aha’ to where my mind, and it feels like my soul, connects with the concept. I know some of my connections happen when I am struggling so hard in my personal life and then some comment or article resonates with me. Or it might have nothing to do with my personal life and that understanding is just that, understanding. 

God wants us to grow in wisdom and understanding. He wants us to learn little by little so we can grow and to take that knowledge and understanding with us to the next life. I hope my mind will retain all these amazing things that I am learning. I know that I learn best when I struggle. 

I must really need to learn because I was given a crossroads moment. I never look at an opportunity to serve in church as something I can skip past. I strongly feel like this is my way of being open to whatever is needed for me to grow and learn. It is God’s way of trusting me as I accept those opportunities and he blesses me with growth and learning, and a lot of understanding. Interestingly enough as we learned this week about being an entrepreneur and having a family, I was given the chance to test where my priorities are with my family and with God. I was given a chance to serve. Life is chaotic at the moment… upcoming wedding, daughter coming home from her mission, sons senior year, both kids at home for school because of Covid, just getting settled in a new house, remodeling that house, taking a few classes at BYUI and of course being mom and wife. So, I was ashamed that I had to consider my priorities when that call came to serve. Why did I hesitate? I am still searching for that answer but I accepted the call to serve. Now, I have faith that God will help me sort through my mess. I have faith he will help me simplify and eliminate. Funny how 6-9 months ago I was feeling a little lost and like I didn’t have purpose. Funny, or maybe ironic, or maybe God has a sense of humor. One thing is certain, I am learning.

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