Dynamic Process

What an interesting week! In the midst of sending off my son and his fiancé back to Utah and Idaho (after a long visit that included using just one bathroom, since the other was torn apart in hopes of having it redone before the girlfriend came), remodeling the kitchen, and having my father-in-law here to help with the mess, the final straw was the Internet not working at BYUI. With my stress levels at an all-time high, I am not sure I can claim any good marks from my behavior, which ranged from tears to temper tantrums that looked like the silent treatment to a bit of criticism toward my husband. Ironically, writing my core values showed me how far from the path I was straying. I, for one, am very grateful for the atonement. I am glad I was able to go through the exercise of evaluating myself honestly and deeply. It is hard to look at your faults and be honest that you are just not behaving in any way that is productive, let alone Christlike. So, even though this week was a tough one, I feel like I was able to really pin down some good Core Values that are personal and meaningful to me. They reflect what I hope to be, as I continue to grow up. Even at 45, I should feel like a big kid, right? Not this week, nope, I am going to set my foot in a better direction though this next week and be more mindful of my direction. I am going to print my core values and post them on my bathroom mirror. I am going to revisit my thankful journal and write three things a day for which I am thankful. I can do better and be better! My core values are a dynamic process!

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